Ryan Buell on the Road to Recovery

A few weeks ago, I reported my own experience in watching the rise and fall of paranormal wunderkind, Ryan Buell.  It was an article that sparked a LOT of debate and a push to learn more about what was going on in Ryan’s life.  Buell had first come to the public’s attention a decade ago in a show called “Paranormal State” in which he and a group of student investigators from Penn State would travel the country helping families who were experience paranormal phenomena in their home.  It was among the first shows of its kind and had an endearing quality to many.

Over the last couple of years, there were rumors of drug use, theft, etc. and Buell was arrested after charges were brought against him for booking an event, taking the registration/ticket money, cancelling the event, and never refunding the money.  At the time of its publishing, Buell had been arrested, again, this time on domestic violence charges after an altercation with his boyfriend.  At the time of his arrest, police said they believed Buell to be under the influence of various substances.

All was quiet for a couple of weeks, and then on May 27th, someone posted to his Facebook account that Ryan had been in rehab and that the family was requesting that the public respect his privacy as he continued to work through the program.  On June 9th, Ryan himself posted that he was seeing his family for the first time in several months.  It seemed that, perhaps, Buell was finally getting some help.

And then, on June 10th, I received a notification that Ryan Buell was live streaming on Facebook.  I quickly clicked on the link and sat with a growing smile on my face as Ryan began to talk about the rehab facility that he was in and that he was facing his addiction and working the 12 steps of recovery.  It was really enough just to see his face to realize a change was happening.

He no longer looked emaciated…his eyes had some life in them.  His energy was high, and he was really able to engage with the audience watching.

Left: Ryan before entering rehab; Right: Ryan from his rehab facility.

Really, this was the guy who his fans remembered.  There was obvious joy in his voice and a seriousness when he spoke about what he was working through.  He honestly seems to be putting the work in and is reaping the results from that.  There seemed to be genuine remorse in his voice as he spoke of the hurt that he had caused his family, friends and fans.

Now I can hear some of you out there saying, “So, where’s my money?”

Once again, he addressed that as part of his recovery.  Working the steps requires an addict to make amends unless it would cause harm to themselves or others to do so.  He gave the example that if you stole from Walmart while you were high, there may be no clear way to pay that back, but you could spend some time working for the charity of their choice.

Through it all, Buell remained as open as he could, and you could see there was still struggle in dealing with everything that was going on in his life.  He didn’t address every question, but he addressed more than he had in over a year.  He spoke of nightmares and desires and the toll that addiction had taken on his relationships.

As the live stream came to an end, he read aloud a comment from a fan saying, “I almost thought we had lost you.”  Buell stared into the distance for a moment and then replied, “Almost did, I think…I almost did too.”

You can watch the entire Facebook live stream below.  I myself offer my sincerest good wishes of strength and determination to Ryan as he continues his recovery road.

 

23 Comments

  1. Desiree

    June 17, 2017 at 10:03 pm

    Wasn’t his first arrest for not returning a rental car?

    • Pa nana

      June 23, 2017 at 6:44 pm

      Correct, failure to return the rental. Fled to South Carolina. Next arrest was in April for battery which had 25,000 bail. Then off to rehab. He does look much better than the pre-rehab live FB stream Wish him a clear mind and body, nothing but the best.

    • Cindy

      May 12, 2018 at 1:47 pm

      I loved Paranormal States but they have to live their lives after its over. Sorry you went down hill but very glad you are on your way up. I have been there myself. It takes time. Get your life back and do what you love. You look so much better. Keep up the good fight.

  2. Fran Purser

    June 24, 2017 at 12:28 pm

    Good job. Stay the course. This was a significant step and I am relieved to see you honestly working on all of the thousands of things that brought you to now. And what you may not see yet, ‘now’ is pretty damn good. God bless. I believe your most important work in life is yet to be. And your pain will diminish as you continue your recovery journey.
    Gosh it was so great to see you looking so much better. Engaging, humorous, sprinkled with humility. I’m just a fan hoping and praying for your continued recovery. Thank you for sharing. Fran in Atlanta.

  3. Melissa

    June 24, 2017 at 12:40 pm

    So glad he’s getting the help he needs! I’ve always been a fan of him and the rest of the cast. Paranormal Investigating has always been one of my favorite shows and have always wanted them to come to my house as myself and my boyfriend and even 2 out of 3 of my kids have had in counters with the paranormal. There was a small boy who had passed in my very room and you can hear and even feel him lots of times. I think him being here has allowed others to come as well not all them being as friendly as the little boy and can be down right scary honestly but I’m so glad he is doing better and getting help! You’ve got my support 100% Ryan!! #Ilovetheshow

  4. Glosa

    July 25, 2017 at 1:18 pm

    Not every one is going to like what Ryan is doing now. Many will find him still untrustworthy. The thing to remember is that addiction is an illness. You wouldn’t hate or bash or throw complete mistrust to some one with the flu. Be kind, not soft, but kind to him. He needs support to succeed! I wish him all the best. My hope is he continues to journal his recovery this way. It would be great to see success unfold.

    • Dawn Braren

      November 2, 2017 at 5:24 pm

      I wish him much luck. But trust him again…sorry no, not that quickly!

  5. Eva

    July 26, 2017 at 2:06 am

    Stay strong, and trust God. He will guide you on your recovery. I hope you didn’t pick up some negative entity. That was probably the reason of your fall. Will be praying for your recovery and God Bless.

  6. Marsha Moore

    September 18, 2017 at 6:09 pm

    Prayers do come to fruition. But we should all remember addiction isn’t a once and done. It is a process that needs full participation of all parties. My ex-husband began to change into a violent withdrawn man who was light years from the man I married. His drug of choice was meth. The last straw came when a friend of his came to our door while he was gone. (Almost every moment) His friend had a very big gun and he informed me that I could always just disappear. One day later my atty filed for divorce. So lets
    give Ryan support, prayer, understanding.

  7. Chris Krewer

    September 30, 2017 at 1:38 pm

    Ryan, You know the more of God’s work you do the more Satan will try and distroy you! You are in a SPIRITUAL battle! Stand and God will always stand with you. Give up and Satan will end you, you are a threat to him! God has more for you to do. We miss you and pray for you. You are loved as our brother in Christ. Renew your mind and get back in the fight. God Bless You !!!

  8. Chris Krewer

    September 30, 2017 at 1:40 pm

    You are one of God’s Best !!!

    • Marsha Moore

      October 15, 2017 at 8:59 am

      Could not have said it better Chris! Ryan, you guys were so young when you started your research. I would imagine there were times when all of you were vulnerable. I was raised on Grande Ronde res in Or. There were a few times when I saw and heard things a kid really doesn’t want to see. The first time I told my Mom, the next day I was “cleansed”. First a sweat and then purged. The next time I told my Mom, the same thing happened. Well, I didn’t tell Mom any more! Do I believe in these things? Yes I do! Now that I am old and fluffy, I don’t mess with those things without a very strong cover. There was a popular couple in paranormal EVPs. No names. They are both dead. The husband killed the wife and then himself. Maybe not a strong enough cover? Ryan you have a good prayer cover. The relationship you have with yourself and God is just as important. My traditional upbringing taught me to always live in harmony. That does not mean with mother earth etc. Be in harmony with yourself. Nut’s, being long winded. Comes with being old and fluffy.

  9. Yvette Kaufman

    October 28, 2017 at 3:57 pm

    As a mom with a struggling adult child, I know how happy & hopeful your mother is right now. I am for you as well. The first time I saw & heard my daughter as the woman I remembered her to be before, I hit my knees & sobbed for an hour. I thought she was gone forever, and there she was, a glimmer of hope shining through the fog. She is in just about exactly right now in October, the place where you were in this video in June. I pray you are even better now. You were a pioneer in your field, and original fans like me, (from Altoona, now in CO), are so hopeful you might return to it someday. The very best of luck & love to YOU young man. Well done👍🏼

  10. Kevin

    November 1, 2017 at 11:25 pm

    There’s a Paranormal State marathon on TV, which prompted me to Google “Where is Ryan Buell?” I read all of the articles. They made me profoundly sad. But… Ryan looks soooo much better in the above recent picture, and watching his video encouraged me that he is headed in the right direction. I have to wonder how much of Ryan’s misfortunes are the result of dark forces seeking retribution. I couldn’t help thinking as I read all of the articles that there is more to the story. I am praying for Ryan!

  11. Orchid reyes

    November 14, 2017 at 1:42 am

    Hang in there be strong! Pray, see the light,get out of the dark.

  12. Chris

    November 18, 2017 at 9:43 pm

    I saw Ryan on those many investigations exposing himself to evil forces in order to protect others. The look in his eyes revealed a deeply caring soul who would do anything to protect and help others. I truly believe that it caught up with him. I wish him the best always, a complete recovery and Gods protection.

  13. Amia

    November 20, 2017 at 9:09 am

    Ryan Buelle was never arrested for ripping off fans–he was arrested for never returning a rental car and then later for assault.

    One can only hope Ryan will be held accountable for his theft of his fans.

  14. Alisa

    December 14, 2017 at 2:36 pm

    Have been wondering for a long time on you. Downloaded all of the old Paranormal State shows. Hoping to see new ones. Big fan, BIGGER fan now seeing you and you being so vulnerable and it was great. You are going to help many. Good Luck, Really hoping to see a new show with you! 😘😘😘

  15. Christine Haas

    December 30, 2017 at 11:26 pm

    Dude needs to be charged for ripping off his “fans”…who do you think financed this moronic frauds drug habit??

  16. CJ Michales

    January 3, 2018 at 3:18 am

    I think of you often, Ryan… I actually found your June cast, by Googling you…I was shocked at the information I read. HOWever, NO ONE has the right to judge or BE JUDGED, except by the “Great Spirit”.
    I was actually more relieved it wasn’t, Cancer which plagued you! Addiction is much more curable.
    Being a psychic medium, myself and working with many of the same types
    of issues as YOU did, I worried when you would provoke…Yet, having said that, we both know an addiction is caused primarily by PERSONAL Demons, instead of the Paranormal type…
    This is being written, January 3, ‘18… So I Pray, those PERSONAL Demons are being kept at bay and that you have learned to forgive yourself, as well as the ones who helped you create them…

    BTW? I happen to be one of the ppl, who paid for your CD and never received it! And I can still stand WITH you…I KNOW, there must be THOUSANDS, like me, out here…

    With this comment, I also send, ALL my Empathy and Healing White Light…

    P.S. I LOVED, hearing you, use the language you did… It made you more like the rest of us! LOLOL (Of course, my Father was a Trucker…So, I use that as MY excuse…LOLOL Like I need an excuse?!?)

  17. Trina Prudhomme

    February 4, 2018 at 9:24 am

    Hang in there Ryan I have been where you are it’s tough road ahead I hope you get better soon. I watch love paranormal state .hope it comes back soon . You can do it hang in there Love ya Trina make yourself healthy. ❤️❤️❤️

  18. Dave

    February 8, 2018 at 4:41 am

    Dear Ryan, I was thinking about you today, watching reruns of Paranormal State on the travel channel. I hope our getting some cheques for it….😬 And I just saw your stream talking about your life right now in rehab and reaching your goals. I applaud you for what your doing and wish I was strong as you are. Yes I have my own Demons anxiety trust what veer you you want to call it. I have no support set up. My wife is not any help we don’t know talk about anything and my own family is not the and never been the close or talkative family so that has been shut down to nobody today talk to. Yes I’ve seen doctors upon Doctorrs about my depression and anxiety but my doctor that I was speaking to and helping me had pachked her bags and left without saying goodbye. That left me abandoned. Isn’t life wonderful? I’m so sorry for rambling…….I had noticed that along time ago on Paranormal State that a girl called Frieda had joined the group and your demeaner had changed. You had gotten a little tdarked and ( I’m sorry) but you complextion had changed. Did she have some sort of cult,demonic embrace on you? I had notice you were so different when she was around? Not saying I’m right but you were in your own world…….or am I totally wrong?

  19. Barbara

    November 4, 2018 at 1:27 am

    I hate to say it, but I can’t help but wonder if these live streams he did were actually from rehab. I myself was in a 60-day inpatient rehab program, and I know other people who have been in them. They take your phone away from you. Don’t let you use tablets and computers while you are there. I can’t imagine them allowing him to do Facebook live streaming.

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